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Oh, go ahead. You know you want to.

Posted on 2020.02.19 at 17:56
Ask me anything.

I won't guarantee that I'll answer, and I won't guarantee that your primitive minds will be able to comprehend my answers if I do so choose, but go ahead and ask. I'm bored, and it'll provide me with a small modicum of amusement.

(OOC: I write Q in multiple prompt communities and a few RPGs. This is the contact post for anyone from any of those groups who needs to get hold of Q or Q's mun. For the casual reader of this journal there will be multiple timelines in operation depending on the RPG, or if it's a prompt community; you can track posts related to specific RPGs with the tag list or by the Memories.)

give me strength
Posted on 2011.06.27 at 10:19
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OOC: Crossposted from Theatrical Muse today.

Prompt 388: Who do you owe an apology to?

"Owe an apology." That's an interesting phrase. It implies that a transaction of some sort has occurred, that an apology is some kind of payment for goods received. That one has the right to demand an apology of another.

I have to question that, seriously. An apology is an expression of one person's regret for their own actions. How can you owe another person an emotion? Your emotions are your own. No one has the right to tell you what to feel, and thus, no one can be owed any emotion, regret or otherwise.

I don't owe anyone an apology. No one did me services in exchange for my freely agreeing to pay them with an apology. It's not likely that I'd take that deal, either, unless I sincerely meant an apology and in that case probably I'd have apologized already... okay, maybe not. I'm not the biggest fan of apologizing at any time, if you must know. But even if I wanted to apologize, the fact that someone else was demanding it of me would make me lose all interest in doing it.

Now. Is there anyone I've harmed, where I regret harming them?

That, I would have to say yes to. But that's not what you asked.

There are those I wish I could undo the harm I'd done to them, or express to them my regret. Generally speaking, I haven't apologized to them, either because they're dead, or because I don't see the point. If I can fix the harm I did, and I regret doing it, then I'll have already fixed it and I don't need to apologize. And if I can't fix the harm, then what good does it do to say some words? That's hardly going to help.

But even if I felt that apologizing would solve anything, even if I were inclined to apologize... I still wouldn't owe one to anyone.

Muse: Q
Fandom: Star Trek TNG and VOY

q with data


Posted on 2011.05.07 at 02:34
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Prompt 32: Gratitude

Data was in sickbay, half taken apart, Crusher and LaForge working frantically at putting him back together. Q felt awful. At first he'd thought the sick feeling he was experiencing was related to the attack on him, but the shot Crusher gave him -- after perfunctorily scanning him, and then turning aside to work on Data immediately afterward as if Q's injuries were so trivial she couldn't spare him a word, and given that he was the one the attack was aimed at, that hardly seemed fair -- had at least alleviated the pain in his head and in the places where he'd hit the floor. He was coming to the conclusion that what he was feeling had nothing to do with his human body.

He was alive, and mostly healthy, some bruises aside, but the Calamarain had been after him. Data hadn't even existed when he'd played his games with the Calamarain -- Data had had nothing to do with it. But Data was dying, and he wasn't.

Debts that cannot be paidCollapse )

Prompt 386: Do you have children? If not, do you want them one day? Talk about what being a parent means to you.

Yes. I have a son. I mean, I've only talked about him here approximately seven quadrillion times, so I can see how that might have escaped some people's attention, but I admit it. I am a dad.

I'd say "God help me", except that I'm the closest thing to a god I know, so it would be kind of pointless.

Managing to have no idea what you're getting into is a neat trick for a nigh-omniscient being, but somehow, I pulled it off.Collapse )
Muse: Q
Fandom: Star Trek Next Generation and Voyager



Posted on 2011.04.01 at 23:54
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"Do you have any family?" the child asked him.

Q is startled by the question. He's simply never considered it, one way or another.

What does "family" even mean, in this context? He examines the child's mind. To her, family means a unit of genetic continuity -- parents, siblings, grandparents. She's thinking of her own family, of a little brother and an older sister, of the parents of her parents, of the siblings of her parents and their children, her cousins. It's a small unit, isolated in her mind from the rest of her species, a special little group of "us" in a sea of "them."

Q does not have anything like that.

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(OOC: crossposted from theatrical_muse today.)

Ah, April Fool's Day. My favorite holiday... except in years when I lose a bet with my son and have to wear a hideous sweater. Oh, well, I suppose it could be worse. The last time I lost a bet to him, I had to go to school. For a year. Pretending to be a mortal human teenager. ...I much prefer the sweater, honestly.

Anyway. Advice.

Prompt #380: What is the best advice you've ever received? (Or, if you prefer, what was the worst?)

The worst advice I ever received was to go talk to a Listener about my problems. I mean, I went there, in good faith, to talk to her about some... personal issues I was having, and she locked me out of the universe. I'm pretty sure that most codes of ethical conduct frown on counselors doing that to their patients, or for that matter bartenders doing that to their customers.

And then, of course, there's the general "Q, grow up", "Q, do what the Continuum tells you to," "Q, become completely boring just like the rest of us", and all the other nonsense various members of the Continuum have advised me to do throughout the aeons, but I never took that advice, so I don't even count it. The advice to talk to a Listener, however... I actually took that advice, more fool me.

The best advice I ever got came from my old friend Q, shortly before I gave him the poison he used to kill himself. I'd... reformed, sort of, more or less, after the Continuum took away my powers. Toed the line, followed the rules, obeyed my instructions, you know the drill. And he told me that he missed the old me. That I was certainly a fine, upstanding Q now... but that he wished I was still the irrepressible rebel I'd been. And he challenged me to find a way to defy the Continuum that didn't result in my having my powers taken away.

I'm pretty sure he didn't mean for me to start a civil war, but it turned out to be the best possible thing for me and for the Continuum (well, being the best possible thing for the Continuum is a matter of opinion, but it's my opinion. You wanna hear another opinion, go ask a different Q.)

Muse: Q
Fandom: ST:TNG and VOY
Note: The references to Q losing a bet with his son and having to spend a year as a mortal student are a nod to the fic A Year With Q, a Harry Potter crossover by Morena Evensong.

panic attack


Posted on 2011.02.11 at 00:37
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(Warnings: From a human perspective the things that happen in this story would be upsetting, but are too fantastical, too much unlike the reality humans live with, to trigger most people. From Q's own perspective, however, this ficlet deals with gang rape and attempted murder, and his emotional state conveyed in the ficlet will reflect that. Be forewarned.)

(Prompt 73: Scared)Collapse )

Crossposted from theatrical_muse today.

Prompt 373: Are you more likely to please others or to please yourself?

The real question is, am I *ever* likely, at any time, to try to please others?

Honestly, yeah, sometimes, but only if it pleases me to do so. I do what I want, when I want, regardless of anyone else's opinions on the matter, and if I refrain from doing what I want it's because doing it would prevent me from having something else I want. For instance, I might refrain from egregiously disobeying the Continuum because I kind of like being alive, having my powers, and not being locked up in a comet or something. However, that doesn't mean that I am trying to please the Continuum at the expense of pleasing myself; it means I'm trying to please the Continuum just enough to not end up greatly displeasing myself.

There are, sometimes, things I might do to please others, but only if making them happy is something that would please me. And even within those parameters, there are things I won't do to please anyone, no matter how much I like them.

My life is all about me. Frankly, I don't see why any of you do it differently. Mortal lives are too short to spend in service to someone else, denying yourself so others can be happy, and Q lives are too long to spend doing things you don't enjoy. Why would anyone prefer pleasing others to pleasing themselves?

OOC: Crossposted from theatrical_muse today.

Prompt 368: "It is but to keep the nerves at strain,
To dry one's eyes and laugh at a fall,
And baffled, get up to begin again,—
So the chase takes up one's life, that's all."
--Life in a Love, Robert Browning

You know, I'd consider this a rare example of humans actually managing to say something profound if I hadn't read the whole poem.

Taken out of context, this quote suggests that the point to life is to keep striving, to keep chasing after something. It's a similar sentiment to another quote from a human: "A man's reach must exceed his grasp, or what's a heaven for?" Given that we, ourselves, have spent a good bit of time in denial of this basic concept, it's rather amazing to me that a species as limited and pathetic as humans could realize it.

The point to life is the chase. To keep searching, to keep reaching for something new. To better yourself (which, unfortunately, gets exponentially harder the closer to perfection you get.) I, along with most of the Q, tried to pretend for millions of years that we *had* reached the pinnacle, that there was nothing more we needed to reach for... and I was miserable, and bored out of my mind, because stagnation is death and the Red Queen's Race applies to all sentient beings, not just the inferior ones. As soon as you stop running forward you slide backward. Even if you are immortal and omnipotent.

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war pics

Wanting a child

Posted on 2010.11.28 at 01:02
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Warnings: non-explicit energy being sex with significant age difference, somewhat graphic violence against energy beings (in other words, not human sex and not human blood and gore, but definitely the equivalents thereof.)

Prompt 77: I want for a childCollapse )

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